Grayscale in a Jar

"Thought I’d Let You Know" by 4EverfreE Brony ft. RelativelPitch

I have my own problems of course, and I don’t wish to depress anyone, but sometimes we need things to relate to so we can let those feelings go. Listening to this song, there are so many people this happened with. Who just go away, leaving me finishing up with just “Thought I’d let you know, and I guess it’s for the better.”

But the bad things in life are there so we really appreciate the good ones. I can say that now, I have never appreciated the little good moments more in my life. I live for those, and hope to give other people some good moments one day.

I am also working on a tumblr idea, with a story, involving Dusk Shine. I’m designing a custom library and scenes. I might be able to pull it off, but at the very least I’ll post pictures of the library in a few days.

celestia-stuff:

im backed from being hacked

Account changed. Rebagle for our favorite longneck.

celestia-stuff:

im backed from being hacked

Account changed. Rebagle for our favorite longneck.

Some sketches I’ve been doing. Again, trying to re-capture things I’ve learned, looks like I’m about warmed up.Also holy shit I like that pinkamena.

Some sketches I’ve been doing. Again, trying to re-capture things I’ve learned, looks like I’m about warmed up.

Also holy shit I like that pinkamena.

Oops.

My biggest mistake ever? Not drawing for the past three days due to my job. It’s almost as if everything I’ve built over the past month or two has vanished over a few days.

Human brain, y u do dis. I may be able to finish a drawing or two today, I hope, after I finish my figure drawings and such. I am NEVER going so much as a day without drawing something ever again - at least one figure drawing gorram it.

I started out doing this normally (the concept sketch, in “pencil”, I kept as the layer below you can barely see)…then while improving my concept sketch I just decided to do… A thing. It means things, is what I mean. Great now I’m writing without erasing either.So the pen layer you see has no erasing, ctrl+Z, or anything at all. I also did not use any pen stabilizer. Just. Markings.  For pitchpatch, who seems to be feeling down.

I started out doing this normally (the concept sketch, in “pencil”, I kept as the layer below you can barely see)…then while improving my concept sketch I just decided to do… A thing. It means things, is what I mean. Great now I’m writing without erasing either.

So the pen layer you see has no erasing, ctrl+Z, or anything at all. I also did not use any pen stabilizer. Just. Markings.  For pitchpatch, who seems to be feeling down.

Yes I know I’m pretending it’s a cat. Shuddap.

Yes I know I’m pretending it’s a cat. Shuddap.

Still No Tumblr Friends After Two Months

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A party of One! Well, Two. My friend Scherzo (not the artist) sent me this after I explained the funny situation.

"A Slow In Dance - We Hate This But We Need To Survive "

I haven’t heard this in so long I forgot when I heard it. From an old youtube account, going through my faves on it.

I am not sure what it means to anyone else, but the meaning to me is important. Especially for those of us who might one day really lose our minds.

Ow

Work damaged arting hoof. Guess now I’ll draw left handed a bit. Maybe I’ll post one for hilarity.

hateball88:

Containers Village. Matte Painting

A rebagel of an amazing illustrator/concept artist/etc. Somehow found me, follows, and now I follow him. It reminds me just how amazing art can be, where it can go, and where I might be one day.

hateball88:

Containers Village. Matte Painting

A rebagel of an amazing illustrator/concept artist/etc. Somehow found me, follows, and now I follow him. It reminds me just how amazing art can be, where it can go, and where I might be one day.

modflame:

I’m sure, as is becoming usual, people will ignore this and shrug it off and just say “leave him alone until this blows over.” No one takes me seriously at this point anyway, but I need to say what I need to say. Regardless of if I’m ignored by the people who claim to care for me or not.

Not…

Most of what I wrote prior seems applicable here. Especially in that our experiences are equal, though I am just a bit older, and seem to have adjusted…kind of. I am writing this at work presently.
Of your art and art fans, everybody makes connections by what they do. Though that is also the problem: you are stuck sifting through endless acquaintances that make you feel more alone by odd lack of interest.
The only thing constant in life is change, as things are transient. It is not that your ideals are wrong, it is that you haven’t found that depth from anyone else - yet. Do not model your life by the idiocracy of masses, it will make you more miserable.
As for attention, so? You need something you aren’t getting and drawing attention to it may find the solution. Or the start of one.

But, well, maybe I am wrong and you don’t particularly like an odd stranger suddenly acting like he cares? I would get that too, but at some point solipsism has to give way to finding something real to you.

A very quick sketch I did just now for Tyrant. Because why not and he’s a cuteponi.

A very quick sketch I did just now for Tyrant. Because why not and he’s a cuteponi.

The biggest lie we’re told by society is that there are people who are capable of caring for others unconditionally

modflame:

The idea of a friend who cares for you as much as themselves for no reason at all is a sick fantasy.

Romantic notions of unconditional love cause problems, while failing to embrace depth of feeling. Rather a person who truly understands you? Unconditional means it does not matter who you are, for you could be Hitler. Rather better they truly get you, and like  you for it?

A friend is a problem when two do not share the meaning. For me, “friend” means family, but in doing so implies innate social cohesion. Things may change of these persons, but they are family to me. I imagine you agree, or have.

Now I see you are getting replies “Well I do!” in nature, to which only I can think “Well bully for you then?” because it’s like telling a depressed person how to be happy. Just, “well bully for you for being lucky, as if that helps me.”

I see humanity as shared suffering, and wish to help if possible.. More than myself? To me that must mean they are greater than me, which requires a very deep understanding not gained quickly. Who knows if I like you or not once I know you.

People who share your view of what a “friend” is do exist, but anyone who truly knows what such feeling is cannot buy in to romantic idealizations like “unconditional” love - for that cheapens love. Treats it as a thing to always be given equivalently with no real value. All human emotions should be valuable, and the deeper the harder earned. I am sorry you have found it so difficult so far.